I'm missing someone because my pet has died.

I have some bad news about Cherry, my pet hamster. She died on Saturday and don't know what happened but there are many theories. On Friday, she was acting strangely, lethargic her breathing was quicky and eyes were closed. I picked her up and Cherry was limp like she was in some pain, I noticed some cuts in both paws and blood in her nose. This is serious as it could of been an affection or something. Should of noticed something sooner but I was out for the whole day because spent 4 hours queuing at the Banksy Exhibition in Bristol City Museum. There were 2 other people in the house, why didn't they do anything? I feel everything is left for me, then made to change plans to suit other people. Don't I get say in this? I feel no one trust my decisions, they just mock me (those incaring bastards!) and always making me feel crap.
Cherry was going to be taken the vet the next day but she never made it. She died with a large patch of blood, the hamster was so young and only had her for 4 days.
These are some photos taken on Thursday.
She is normally active at 8.00 p.m. and has her breakfast. I made her triple tube for her but never lived long enough to use it.
Her favourite food is the dried banana, I clipped a special Hamster treat in her cage and loved it. In the day she spent most of the time in her house, I placed more wood shavings in the corner near the wheel as she hides there often when the light is on. I noticed she used the corner as another place to sleep.
This is the last photo I took of her, unaware at the time she is very sick. Little animals if they are ill can go downhill very easily. Poor Cherry you are gone and will be surely missed. I'm still missing you right now. This feels like the time when my rabbit died. Can't contemplate something is there all the time and now suddenly gone. All I see an empty space where Cherry was.

Cherry (June - August 2009)

I find it very insensitive on how people can immediate replace a pet like a broken object, oh I suppose you can replace people as easily. You can buy another pet but won't be the same.
I'm annoyed how people in my household are uncaring and love to mock me. I can guess who could of done something to me pet as on Thursday before I went to sleep she was still in her house. The same person who hurt my rabbit.
I would like a fancy rat then these bastards says that they catch one in the street for me. How cruel! I feel hurt and depressed. Like no one cares about my chooses, I was the one who chose Cherry and the fact she died only rubs it in further.

I want my Chinese dwarf hamster back but this is impossible as when something is gone, they are gone forever.